Thursday, Friday, Saturday…Saturday was my third night of injections. I thought it’d get easier each time, but I’m finding that to be not so. Last night the HCG needle did NOT want to go in, and I had this moment of panic thinking “what am I going to do if it doesn’t cooperate?”. Thinking about the needle made me nauseous and dizzy. It went in, but it hurt. We also figured out that what looked like an air bubble in the syringe the night before was indeed, so I only got .1 of the hcg instead of the .2. This isn’t a huge deal, but it could be. I have to laugh though and think that it really cannot be such a big deal or they would have given me a pen type device like the Follistim. They have to know that us regular folk don’t really know much about needles. I’m sorry, but I don’t have ANY experience with this stuff and you give me this HUGE responsibility. I would make a terrible druggie. I guess that’s a good thing.
I’m beginning to have pain in my left ovary, but that’s the evil side and it was giving me grief before the start of this process. The U/S hadn’t shown anything on that side so I can only panic about why it hurts. It’s probably just scar tissue from my surgery or the cysts that vanished recently. We will see tomorrow at my first U/S to monitor these injections.
I’m also beginning to experience the lovely irritability that comes along with injecting yourself with hormone filled needles because your body strongly dislikes working as it should, and the emotional hurricane that comes along with overloading your body with hormones! T is helping me to regulate the storm by watching movies with me and going for walks. The exercise does help release the good mood hormones, so I feel it’s a positive thing to keep doing. I wish I could go for a run but I’m afraid of flipping my ovary.
Tomorrow is back to work after a two week holiday. I think that’s part of the grumpiness. I hope my students can use their manners and be cooperative this month. Being a teacher is ridiculously stressful, just an fyi. I work with 12 yr olds and we all know, they have their own hormonal problems.