A cloud has been hovering over me and I’ve gone to “the Dark Side”. (You know, Star Wars?) I didn’t write yesterday because I had cramps really bad. They made me think negative thoughts about my cycle, mostly “AF is on it’s way”. I let these negative thoughts creep into my mind and they wouldn’t leave. I have no spotting, so I should just keep being positive and think it’s implantation cramping. But I couldn’t, and still am struggling now.
I still have cramps but they have not been as bad today. They come and go. My negative mood subsided a little during the day because I’m surrounded by middle schoolers and amazingly they help cheer me up. I have to be smiley so they will be motivated to learn.
I didn’t want to share this, but I thought maybe my fellow “infertiles” could help cheer me up. It’s different sharing this with people not experiencing it. They can feel bad for me and tell me everything will be okay, but only you all know the feelings I am experiencing. The torture of every “symptom” since PG symptoms are similar to AF symptoms. I have to distance my emotions even writing this because thinking about how low I felt yesterday drags me back down.
Did anyone experience cramping after transfer?
If only my husband had Jedi mind control. I read on another’s blog that after transfer they should just put us to sleep for two weeks. I completely agree. LOL.
Thanks for listening,